wat can i do?
saw u...

happy....

u ran...

i chase...

lost again...

PS: all i wanna say is thank u for the present n i love u dear... cant u spare even a min for tat?




slpy pig....
juz woke up from my slp... den had dinner i tink in a while i gonna go back to slp liao... hahaha... duno since i work i had been slpin like tat... today i slept from 2 plus till ard 9.... inbetween got wake up lah... cos dear called so tok to her for a while loh... =) den after tat went back to slp liao... mayb i ish realli tired liao... hmmm lets tok abt ytd...




suay or not?
juz came back from outside... juz now went to mustafa wif saifun n his bro... nutin better to do actualli he say wanna buy dvd recorder... but in the end left empty handed... lol... actualli can slp at hm but duno y still wanna go out... tinkin tat again later ard 4 hrs of slp den have to work liao... argh... den my left leg still hurts after tis mornin when i was pushin the trolley full of stuffs the thing juz topple over n one of the basket juz slam onto my leg... den swell loh... at least not very serious juz tat everynow n den can feel the pain lah... irritatin... hope it will feel better tml... anyway the gd thing is our problem is solve n i m a happy man she's a happy ger liao... remember wat i say to u ok... dun worry i will remember wat u say to mi oso... =) ok lah... tats all for today n its runnin late... i better go slp liao... gdnite... =)




yet another day..
looks like i like to say alot of my work here... duno y... today orders were lesser... so quite happy tinkin tat today can go hm earli... but... lets start from the mornin... argh... hate myself lah... duno m i born like tat or wat... learn smt den till certain stage will stuck there n cant improve anymore... den tis is my 2nd week at work... still i cant improve on my packin speed... duno y no matter how much orders i get i still b the last to pack finish... damn demoralisin... den my supervisor oso very paitence... den keep encouragin mi tis n tat.... den my seniors oso will help mi... but the thing is i dun wan them to help mi always... as my supervisor once say to mi... spoon feedin wont let u grow up... i realli hope tat i will improve... whereas sendin order is fine... juz tat i pack the wrong stuff n send there... in the end have to go back exchange... waste time onli.... =/ den in the end still reach hm ard 5+ like tat... which is like same as other days... if not for tat today 2 plus i already go hm liao...

den abt i n her... things had bein toked out... i oso dun wish to comment much... u noe wat i wan u noe how i feel... juz hope tat everything will turn out fine for us eventually... hopefully...




changes...
as i had say juz now i will say wat ever i wanna say here... n here's it...

i noe i m selfish tat at 1st i dun let u go but i told myself to let u go... cos 1st thing i noe bcos of our r/s it cause u alot of stress from which ever source it come... be it hm or sch... which bcos of tat i tink tat i bcum a xtra burden to u... tats y u r force to find a very gd reason to leave mi... its ok i understand... i noe it hurts alot... for mi... n u too... but nvm... i understand... study is 1st now... so make sure u work hard on tat k? n i will work hard too.. :) perhaps last time i nv realli look from ur point of view n being ur shoes... but now i did look from ur way... but it came realise to mi too late liao... but its ok... juz treat it as a valuable lesson learn...

n 2nd thing... as i had say let it b a promise from mi n for mi to keep... a goal for mi to work towards mayb... there will b tis day... i will ask u to b my dear again... :) anyway for now i dun realli feel any difference... mayb juz a change in status... i noe u still will do things tat u used to do like call mi n stuff like tat... at least kinda tink of it is not so sad after all... mayb is the way things tat r put across by us which makes it sad... so as u said... smile like nutin had happen... even thou i noe i cant... :)




again....
everything is juz like a dream to mi now... n life's not gonna b a same again....




time realli flies...
juz came hm from outside... juz now went to balcony at hereen to chill out wif my guys... cos today 1 of them ish bday... den watch soccer oso... manU n liverpool thou not my fav arsenal but still hope tat manU will win n true enuff they win by 3-0 haha... total pwned liverpool... was havin a great time there man... at then i was tinkin back so fast all of us had grown up n the memories tat we used to have like times we quarrel or even fight... the times we sit under block for our tokin session, solvin probs together, helpin each other in need... tinkin of tat its great to have u all till now... :) den after all the fun we all headed hm den some of them carry on to go for nasi lemak at chongpang i didnt folo tinkin of i need to wake up in like 4 hrs time countin for now... sian... i noe watever things its always the hardest in the beginnin... but i m sure soon i will b ok liao...

den saw dear's msg at tag... was kinda sad to read tat... cos i noe wat she is doin but i cant stop her from doin... n i wanna stop her cos i care... dun u feel tat? if i can stop u i will go rite in front of u n pull the knife away n if u insist of doin tat... i will join u... doin double of wat u do... but i cant... 1 thing... i noe u tink tats the onli way to make u feel better... but u noe tat i feel so useless as a bf tat noe tat his gf is doin something to hurt herself n he cant stop her... n if i realli dun care u tink i will still all those things above n wont b bother to stay ard to look for u n dun even noe where u r... n many other things... n i m always ard wat... anything or probs u face can always tell mi wat i m ur bf... u may not wanna tell mi everything but at least u tell mi some... cos i dun wanna c u bcos of things or probs u face tat u wanna hurt urself to feel better k...

ok lah... tats all for today... gonna go slp liao... but 1st... gdnite to my dear... hugs n kiss... miss n love u lots lots... :)




not a gd friday...
suppose to post tis ytd...

ok... i duno how come its call a gd friday when evertything seems to b wrong.... i waken up in the mornin feelin so much like dying... cos my body ish achin all over.... i tink my muscles have been slpin for too long liao ba.... tokin abt bad... when i was sendin an order over to paragon... n i accidentally too the last order which is the centerpoint's order... after tat i realise it when i was puttin the stocks to the shelves... tats not the worst... tinkin tat i can go hm after the last 1 at centerpoint i was like try to get the energy tats left in mi to finish the job cos althou its not much of orders... but i m realli shag out liao... so the worst thing tat happen was when i m goin down the ram of the loadin bay... my basket full of stocks slide out of my trolley den it flipped over n all the stocks in it scatter on the ground like tat... my partner was like stunned... i oso duno wat to do... den like tat no choice loh... cos some of the stocks had been damaged in the process den we had to bring everything back to office loh... damn sian can... :( den after tat i was like feelin damn super low lah... expectin my supervisor will give mi a gd scoldin or wat... but when we reached our office when i saw him standin there he was smilin to mi... den i say to him today is a bad friday n not a gd 1 man... after tat he tok to mi n giv mi encouragement sayin tat accidents do happen n we learn thru mistakes... den not take too hard on wat has happen... things tat can b solve r not probs... probs r things tat cant b solve... :)

later at nite... as usual saifun ask mi wanna go chill together... den after tat i went over to his hse den we played the new game he juz buy for his ps3... its ROCKBAND... damn nice loh... den after tat... went down to meet up wif other 2 guys at bugis to further chill ourselves... n catch up on wat we missed n have our dinner there too... food was nice n everything is gd... but the thing is i gonna slp onli afew hrs b4 goin to work... another day of shagness awaits... =)

PS: dear... i realli dun mean it not pickin up ur calls.... as written in my tag all along i always pick up ur calls when u call mi de wat... so tis time 1st time so dun angry lah k... :) another thing... i noe its useless for mi to say tat... but i still wanna say... i dun wanna u to hurt urself.... if u piss off wif mi, wanna scold wanna beat i give myself to u... juz dun hurt urself k... =/

n lastly.... i realli do care alot for u... i realli do...




shag-go-nana
juz wake up from my slp... damn shag sia... den realise tat i had slp for like 5 hrs liao... den oso realise i have 13 miss calls from my dear... she called since 9 plus ba... didnt hear it back den bcos i tink mi ur dear too tired den slp too deep liao... but anyways tat shows how much u miss mi le... =P anyway i miss u lots lots too... althou u nv call mi tat much le... but for mi if i cant get to c u at least i get to hear ur voice once in a while n noe tat u r fine i will b happy enuff le... =) tis is gonna b a hard time for both of us... but i m sure we definately can make it true de rite...

PS: its a very short post i noe... but juz wanna say i love u dear... =)




2 in 1...
suppose to post ytd but fell aslp halfway by the time i woke up is my bro call mi le...

ok... lets start from ytd...

yup ytd i went out on my own to send the orders... things when well quite fine n i got back to office by within the time tat my supervisor had guess... haha... notch bad loh... go hm n doze off 1/2 way watchin some tw drama tat my bro n his gf r watchin... by the time i noe it den is my bro wake mi up n ask mi wanna go out wif our butties all... cos 1 of them is bday today... but sadly he needs to book into camp... :( den we all went out loh... den i drove my bro n his gf to chong pang nasi lemak there den we relac makan for awhile... den wait for the others to finish work... den duno where to go oso den we ish tink tat we go our usual place loh... yishun dam.... den we tok n tok... i was kinda tired at tat time liao... den i lie on the floor for awhile loh... but nv slp oso... =P den after tat all the guys came n we decided to go jalan kayu to eat prata... not bad loh... den wif out i noein... is time to go work again liao... =/

ok... den its today... when i saw the amount of orders to send today i was like sian... summor i m the 2nd highest for the day... siao liao loh... true enuff... as i m still noob... i wasnt tat fast in packin our orders... den my seniors all helped mi wif tat... tot today will pass by smoothly but who noes... 1 is worst than the other... tis wrong order tat wrong order... tis missing tat missing... den customer complain here n tat... which add up to my confusing routes to take... in the end i reach hm at 7.30 like tat summor nv go back office... den i later still have count the money tis n tat... sian... :(

juz wonderin do sum1 actualli read my blog? i onli noe tat my dear does... anyway sumthing to say to u... u wanna go hm do ur hw den tell mi mah... ish no need to run away from mi de... :( if u tell mi den i send u hm tats it le.. oso wont waste anymore time de... =)




lost.U.lost.me
juz reach hm from meetin dear... was afraid tat i m late den i took cab down to clemeti to meet her after her tution class... waited awhile den out she came... was afraid tat her teacher saw us... den we walked away for a distance.. den meet up again... she pass me present.. den after tat i ask wats tat den she say duno after tat she ask mi to go hm myself n she will make her own way hm... i was like y? i wanted to send her hm but she warned mi not to folo her n she walked super fast n i was like suddenly she was gone in the crowd... after tinkin a sec... i decided to give chase but i guess even god dun wanna help mi... i guess tis time realli make mi realise wat a big mistake had i made... =( i was at the interchange hopin tat she will b there waitin for bus but she wasnt... tis time realli my mind is lost liao... den i decided to walk back to near the mrt... n when i was crossin the road... from far i saw sum1 like her... but when i run over she wasnt there oso... haiz... den i stay ard there for a while tinkin tat she will appear but there isnt any sight of her... i have no choice but to go hm by myself...

PS: dear... i realli got so much things tat i wanna tell u abt but perhaps tat u r still need somemore time... nvm... i will give u all the time n space u wan...




achin.....
argh... juz wake up from my nap... oh god... my body is achin like hell now i feelin as thou i juz enter bmt at tekong sia... need to wake up early but slept late last nite... lol... wake up feel so shag at 1st but after tat ok liao... hope it will b ok later on... need some 1 to massage for mi... dear can help mi? =P haha... juz had my dinner but dun realli eat much duno y... mayb cos i had a sandwich left behind by my sis juz now... she so gd... nx 3days will b goin gentin wif her bf... enjoy loh...duno when den can have my holidays too... =/ hmmm... later gonna fetch dear finish class... lucky can meet her today... if not i duno will miss her till wat lvl liao... =) today work was ok lah... juz tat duno y some places of which i need to deliver orders to is still in my mind... argh... fetup man... den tml i will b on my on... juz hope tat everything goes well tml... *prays* pray for mi k? =) ok lah... gonna prepare to go out le...




step it up~!
juz now went to watch movie wif my friends all... its STEP UP 2... den i damn blur again loh... duno y tis feel days when i m outside duno y like nv bring brain out like tat... juz now was buyin the tix loh... den i pay all 11 tix by my card 1st... den after tat i take tix tat time den i realise tat i shld have given my safra cut for discount to 8bucks loh... in the end i pay 1.50 extra each for all the tix... =/ nvm loh... den my friends giv mi back money oso i nv ask them pay full lah... some pay 8 some 9... den the movie was like damn nice loh... esp their dance moves... i hope tat i can dance like them... lol... for those who noe me or c mi dance b4 u shld noe y i say tat... haha... den over all the movie is great lah... after tat went to chong pang nasi lemak to makan... den was tokin abt my friends which few of them their bday r ard the corner liao... den was tinkin wat to buy for them for presents... after tat i go hm by myself again cos my bro n friends decided to ROC again at my old hse there... i cant join them tinkin tat last nite i onli had 2 hrs of slp b4 goin to work... crazy sia... not for tonite... sayin tat look at the time now... omg...1 liao... need to wake up at 4 later... ok lah... i gonna go slp liao... if not realli later duno how to survive liao... gdnite... n dear cant wait to c u later tonite... =)




time after dinner...
not bad lah... juz had my dinner... got steam fish, chicken nugget, n seaweed chicken... quite full though... haha... was crackin my brain for the podcast tat i m doin for dear... juz had a idea inspired by my best friend... lol... anyway she called mi n we toked awhile but at least it cures abit of my "missing my dear virus" =P but den she ask mi not to go find her after her tution tml wor... sad man... i juz wanna c u giv u a hug n have u in my arms tats all i ask for tellin u tat i regret for wat i have done... but if tats wat u wan den i m fine wif it... anyways there's always chance juz tat if u dun wan oso i cant force u to wat... =) anyways juz receive sms from one of them from my usual group askin mi will wanna watch set up 2 anot... den most prob i will b join them... hope after tat i got more inspiration to write the podcast ba... hahaha... anyways dear... dun slp too late later... tml gonna wake up earli liao... anyways gtg... miss u dear... =)




another sunday...
yup its sunday again... i juz reach hm from work... onli had 2 hrs of slp since last nite... cos ytd nite went yishun dam wif my usual gang... its been sometime since i went there liao... juz go there ssrr & chill loh... got alot of bikes n cars to c usually on a sat nite.... den we juz sit ard tokin n playin cards n enjoyin the cool sea breeze comin at us... at den i was tinkin of my dear too... was kinda happy cos she called mi... "YEAH~" hahah... yah... she say she forgived mi... at least my effort nv gone to waste... =) but she say she wont unblock mi from msn wor... dear u ish win big time tis time round... =/ anyways dear... i wont do tat again le.. =) anyways i tink i gonna go rest for awhile kinda shag after onli slpin 2hrs... hahah.... i noe i ish pig... =P tats all for now...




i treasure but i regreted oso... =(
tried all means of explainin myself... but still no avail... tink tat she is realli mad at mi now... doin watever oso is useless liao... juz have to wait time to pass n c how... she realli ignoring mi... i dun blame her for not givin mi a chance to even explain myself... cos i noe for my self i did hurt her feelings sumhow or rather... tats wat hurts mi... n tinkin abt the days n times we spent together.... i realli give all i have to her... nv even have any doubts abt anything... anyways i doubt she will even c my blog now... if realli u did read... i juz wanna say i realli regreted sayin watever i said... i juz wan u to give mi another chance... dear... u noe i love u....




revival of my blog???